When Sarah Laughed

I love reading the referral section on Sitemeter to see how people found my site. Today, I saw a google search for sarah, laughed, Genesis. Yes, my name is Sarah. Yes, I do love to laugh and yes, my site has Genesis in it. But, here's what they were probably looking for:

Genesis 18: 9-15 reads
"Where is your wife Sarah?' they (the three heavenly visitors) asked him (Abraham).
"There, in the tent," he said.
The the Lord said, "I will surely return to you about this time next year, and Sarah your wife will have a son."

Now Sarah was listening at the entrance to the tent, which was behind him. Abraham and Sarah were already old and well advanced in years, and Sarah was past the age of childbearing. So Sarah laughed to herself as she thought, "After I am worn out and my master is old, will I now have this pleasure?"

Then the Lord said to Abraham "Why did Sarah laugh and say, 'Will I really have a child, now that I am old?' Is anything too hard for the Lord? I will return to you at the appointed time next year and Sarah will have a son."

Sarah was afraid, so she lied and said, "I did not laugh."
But he said, "Yes you did laugh."

I originally titled my blog Genesis Moments because as an aspiring fiction writer I loved the idea of creating something from nothing on clean new pages where intricate tales wait to unfold in new and exciting ways. I realize that now I can have another meaning to the title of my blog. It symbolizes how many times I doubt God and yet how faithful He is. And, He makes sure I know when I am wrong so that I can repent but then He proceeds to bless me immeasurably more than I could imagine just like with Sarah of old. I have been in such a state of transition this year, trying all sorts of things, having the time of my life and I felt closer to the Lord than ever before, putting my complete faith in Him to provide work and opportunities to serve in ministries that honor and glorify Him.

Yes, I am concerned about our finances and that if I go back to work full-time that I won't be able to serve as I have been. That scares me because I have felt so fulfilled at the pregnancy center and just recently as the new president of women's ministries in our presbytery (called PresWIC or President of Women in the Church). There is so much to be done and so little people have time to do it seems.

So, like Abraham's Sarah, I often feel inadequate and unable for the task laid before me but I pray that if God would have me do it (whatever that "it" is) that He will make me able so that I will be a testimony of His mercy, grace and love. I am willing to go where He leads. But that could be a little scary too. Especially when He presents opportunities so out of our realm of experience or comfort. Again, I believe that if He calls, He will also make me able. Can I hear an AMEN?!

Comments

[Junebug]

Sarah also smiles. :D

[Lizz @ Yes, and So is My Heart]

I always wondered about your title. It makes complete sense.

I really liked this post. I know all too well about doubting God. But, He is teaching me to look beyond my circumstances, and keep my eyes on Him. I just studied this yesterday in Beth Moore's Patriarch Study. Abraham believed and for that he was considered righteous! Isn't our God awesome!?